Vlsiyinn's Space: ..... WOW........

seriously i dun know and how.... TOTALLY WOW nia... wow means world of wordless..... especially to those i have name them as my sister / best buddy and friends... being nice to people must really got motive ma? seriously... for me i dun have... cause why should i? is really purely treat them nice.... i mean i can be very nasty to someone too but when that happens means that person really too much... and took me for granted~!!! or really made me hit the roof.. i am just a normal SG local born gal.... i really dun understand why a friend i call sister would feel and do such things to me.... including some other humans i mean i call them human is being courtesy~!!!! just like some aunties i know outside... i just really feel that she need friends.... i make friends with her... in front of me and other... praise me and so on... end up... behind me... doubting me~!!! WA Lau.. it really turn me off from her liao...i feel like confronting her... but i dun wanna make things more complicated~!! another human....is my 23 years friend....we know since young.... and grew up together.... i NV doubt her... i NV suspected her... I NEVER EXPECTED HER to badmouth me..... talking about me.... being a bad woman.... i mean... am i really that horrible... i mean i know i would ignore the person who i not close too or busy at work i would just be alone~!! but it doesn't mean anything lo~!!!I GAVE UP ON TELLING PEOPLE OFF~!!.. LET IT BE~!! HEAVEN GOT EYES... WILL KNOW WHO AND HOW I REALLY... MY CONSCIENCE IS CLEAR~!.... I SWEAR.... EVEN LIKE.... for BB... I JUST WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY... the only thing i wanted is him to be happy... so i really willing to do everything within my limit to cheer him up... make him happy even i will look stupid or dumb.... i really dun expect abything from him.... ( okay la he told me he appreciate everything i did for him... and he is touched which really make me feel happy cause nvr one a guy said this to me.. or anyone~!)even like the thing i made for him~ seriously~(which i don't think i benefit anything lo... ) but only feel happy when he is happy.... actually seriously i make friend with him i saw he was so emo cause of his failed relationship.... i stay by his side as a friend all i wanna to be is to cheer him up... wanna him to move on with his own life forget about that girl and just stay as friends with that girl as i know they know each other long time... it's painful to give up friendship... or to lose a friend who to you important...well whatever.... initially is like that... but somehow feelings grows...(i mean as time goes by.. i like him, and wish i could be with him.... but i know is difficult... i only can daydream about LOL~!!) but seriously i can be friend with him, i happy le.. i enjoy his company... i like to hear his voice... i like to see his eyes...( actually nvr notice till 2 time we went out he ask me about his eyes... then i realise he really got beautiful eye, ops!).. anyway i know with my type of situation for now.... it.s difficult to involve in a rs.... i take as i'm one sided ba... cause i dun know he really like h=me or dun like liao... cause i given him so much rubbish attitude which as i just learnt if you like that person, should show him ur weak part.... or tell him about the past....whateva la... long list la... still learning...........

but anyway... bb Not in my fb liao.... i found on Mon.... i was damn paranoid....lol.... till now i am still v sad... i feel so lonely with him in my fb... i mean everytime i log in.... i can see him on my special list.i feel as if he is still around.... . I ANYHOW THINK again... I THOUGHT HE DELETE ME/ BLOCK ME AND CHANGE HIS NAME~!! CAUSE HE DUN WANNA CARE ME LIAO~ HE DUN CARE ME LIAO!!! I DIRECTLY MESSAGE HIM ASK HIM.... DITRACTION ESPECIALLY HE NEED TO STUDY NOW AND SO ON....STAY FOCUS TO SOLVE EVERTHING~!....he said he deactivate his account and is like JUst delete nia lo.... BUT LATER ON I FIGURE OUT I HAVE THE WRONG REACTION AGAIN~!!! MAYBE HE IS JUST STRESSED... AND FB IS KIND OF .... >.< i really almost cryout~!!! now i hope he can JOIN BACK FB SO THAT AT LEAST IF I GO OVER SEAS STUDIES OF WATEVER I STILL CA SEE HIM ONLINE....I GAVE HIM MY ID AND PW... HOPE HE COULD ADD ME FROM MY ACC.... IF HE DOES JOIN BK............ but i prefer and used to see him in my fb for the pass 9 months... i really hope he will join bk fb la....i misses him although my hp got is pic...

well it's late........ i guess i beta sleep......... tired~!!!!!!!! ahhh... maybe for tomorrow....and friday i will try to control my sms to him... cause still everyday message... emoing.... really have tolet him be alone... he told me he got alot to do and think... I REALLY WISH I CAN BE USEFUL TO HIM....i really hope i can do something or help him share about of stress? wateva he is facing.... at least he will be happy~!

aiyo~!!! why every time i will talk about BB HUH~~!! i think better stop.....