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i went to east coast this morning... i met tricie too... just simply sit there for a moment... and let it all out just sit down there and cried for like 20 mins... before i go home... i did not  wanna talk to tricie abt it cause i feel i dun wanna pass mny emotions issues to her again...... i just feel wordless. just now talk to bb awhile in msn.... he said forget wbout it... i wanted to asked really ma? will not again like that ma? i give in... i do something that i dun like at all... MSN... cause of my hp..my ebuddy is damn freaking sucks... i nvr nvr like to go msn.. i really not happy liao.... i think i reallyh need a break from everyone, everywhere... now i am just simply thinking why did i took the retarded pic too... perhaps is really because i just wanna make him happy... but am i happy? he said before he appreciate things i done for him... and he is touched... is he really? i dun know why... i doubted him... whatever... all this i just let it out....anyway whether in future will i still continue be some one to him a irrtant or precious... i dun want to know already.... i am taking that issue to heart cause... i really really... wordless  arghhhh.... working now... i dun wanna because of him liao... i just hope we are still friends, i guess i should hold back everything about him... perhaps will let go... i know i cannot do it now... cause i really fallen for him... deeply... i just have no luck, dun know how to handle guys... perhaps i i am really better be a loner.. i dun know what is in his mind..