UNEASY DAY

 

early morning after stop msging bb i put on make up try out to smile.... took many shots.. but i just cannot find my correct angle.... LOL~!
i dun care liao i know i am fat... just leave it to fate whether i can slim down

an uneasy feeling and day for me....

i just felt uneasy.. perhaps cause i having the woman's "big time"... freaking painful... i really dun know why... perhaps i should relax abit more.... seriously look horrible without makeup.... today whole afternoon while doing my handicraft i was troubled... suddenly thought of BB and his ex...i really wish and the only thing i really wan from bb is him to be happy... never be emo... forget about the feeling for her.... just freaking let go and if possible just be friends with her( maybe not now in future)... cause it's like a gal normal reaction... i really have the urge to nag at him...and in the end i did.... i throw tantrum as usual.... after reading his reply... i guess i should not pressure or forced him.... i know he is human... he got feelings.... and is his life... i should not be so kpo.... and i guess think too much... i know i could not change his thinking....cause i am not anyone to him ba... even though he said the 4 words to me( on the day i almost given up the hope for him somemore~!!,this is all i can remember)..  the questions  in my mind is how deep and how true... how serious he towards me...i know BB is a nice guy... he is so different from other guys i know... really a unique and different guy...i guess at times i really want to know more about him and i really wanna stay by his side but i really scare.. cause i so afraid of changes between our friendship i like the way we are now i so afraid i will have expectation when i wish... is always never dream come true de..... till a point... i kept asking myself.... why am i...? perhaps now is other way round... i nvr been so so so so serious about when come to feeling issues before( after being hurt so deep by my asshole ex i dun have any serious hope in any guys).. i nvr wanna seriously do something for someone after what had happen 1 year ago.. in the serious manner... perhaps he is the only guy i really listen to now... people who met him before told me he look like a nice guy... askme to cherish him this friend...  and i really do....ok i think this post also damn freaking messy... i also dun know.... i got something to tell BB i wanted to msg him..( wanted to write it down in here but i forget>.<).. but my hp keep hanging... as usual~!!! nokia C6 sucks big time!!!!!


whole morning bb tell me what i can eat what i cannot... in the past if someone want to tell me what to do... i will just turn off... after knowing BB, i realise... i havelearn to listen more than whatever turn off i did... i felt like i am a little gal... LOL~!!!




i think i dun care AND THINK SO so much ba.. I THINK I GO SLEEP....I AM TOTALLY DRAINED... stick to my motto" NO HOPE=NO DISAPPOINTMENT"