for the past 1 year i had bad memories linger around me.. time is up and down... only this year after i know BB** this friend....... before that the start when broke off with that man was so horrifying.... HAD LOADS OF DIFFICULTY TO LET GO.... ( simply repeated pattern) TOTALLY AND anyway i decide to let go. i must move on my life with me, myself and 1 only.. i want to go on diet.... but always failed... cause i not discipline enough~! by this yearend i lose weight to 45kg, i know is gonna be difficult for me... cause i love food, i eat everything except RED MEAT~! oily, spicy,salty very sweet stuffs.... i jog... really needed to shed some fats... nono is LOADS OF IT~! if not my ankle cannot carry my weight ah~~~ i dun want to be like what my korkor fabian call fat woman=( i wan my flat tummy, slimer and toned body... lol..... just like before...(>.<)
**BB is someone i really like now.. i used to afraid and just hide or denied that i like him....and now he knows too... i told everything( i really wish he will be the last and the only guy enter my world liao.... and really want to know how he really feel about me but... i afraid of being hurt....so i rather not to know.... seriously dun want.... ) after realising my feelings towards him... by doing somethings for him.... i will care, worry, and concern about him) now beside BB no other guys around me... he is also the guy i slowly got my motivation and determination to go exercise , workout, and morning jog and lose weight... to maintain my look... and get my life back ... (**looking back... it actually started 3 months ago( 19 march 2011) when he first really talk to me in MSN( around feb?? cannot really remember**)... and end up ask me to acc me go walk around... remember BB accompany me and listen to me nag whole evening... at taka, ion and udders... for the first time met up and to listen me talk was really him too.... initally i would just ignore his msn 'BOO'... cause i was really no mood to go talk to anyone at all.....)
[this post i guess... is really a messy 1... veryy super messy one... in the past i won't share my blog with anyone... i afraid and really just treat it as my private n personal space...but for now i dun care cause this is my private space... i wanna write what say what... is my problem... no one is allow to judge me just like that=,=~!!.. you dun like dun read lon dun stalk my blog lo~...]
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