i met bb last night.. i felt happy.. but seriously..as usual... Cannot speak out when see bb...=/ to me he dun look good.. he look so pale..he kept coughing.... seem really unwell.... hope he get well soon... I got worried about him.. I guess it best just leave it this way... passed him what i want to pass.. bb ask me what i wanna know... it seems he is really not happy with me... when i being so drag.... i also dun like the way i was last night... really wanted to ask him.... what actually in his mind, how he felt about me..... what exactly is in mind towards me....or we only can be just friends... i really wanna ask wat he want me to do then he will be happy.. i always guess this and that.. as in really keep wild guessing~~!! did i make him angry why he dun seem dun wanna talk to me... and everything... and i really hope is not i think too much.. i really want only his attention.... but after hearing what he said... i feel that i feel that i am sooooo inconsiderate so damn bloody immature... he is busy.... he is a human... he need his personal space.. The things i wanted to tell him or ask him shall not be questioned and answer le.... I guess this the best i can do for him and myself..but kor and the rest say i should avoid or ignore.... i wasn't... it just that... that's bb... different from other guys... i have special feeling for him.. I really cherish him and this friendship between us.. first time i feel so wordless.... in the past i never like b4... seriously i really feel that silence should be the keyword in my life now.... used to always voice out, sick and tired to voice out...  is tiring when one dun understands. WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW? I REALLY DUN WANNA MISS THE CHANCE... IF EVER I HAVE... ZZZZ RUBBISH ME LA... THINK SO MUCH ALSO STILL RUBBISH.....